pretty great savior :)

"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who in every respect has been tested as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need." (Hebrews 4:14-16)

I think a lot of times I forget that asking God to do or for something isn't like asking myself or someone I know to do that same thing. Sometimes I forget to remember that God can do ANYTHING. God is God because he is almighty and magnificent and so good and caring and wants the absolute best for us, sometimes even more than we know. It's almost the end of March and I'm ending my second year of graduate school and to say I'm overwhelmed might be an understatement lol. I have tons of projects to complete before the end of the semester, financial aid and a mess of paperwork to figure out for Guatemala, not to mention my practicum where I'm trying to learn and take in how to become a Child Life Specialist and impress the specialist for when I interview for an internship. The other half of the problem is that I put WAY to much pressure on myself to get it all done and do it perfectly. I create all this worry and stress and anxiety because I want to do everything perfectly and have everyone around me see it that way too. I know my God can do anything but am I really believing it? Am I really coming to the throne of grace with a boldness that I believe that God can take my path and my life and the people that I am encountering and the school work I am doing and make it the best thing ever for me? If I'm being honest with myself I would say the answer would probably be no. I WANT for that to be true. I want to rid myself of this perfectionist anxiety and throw myself at the feet of Christ and say I need your help! This is something that is a work in progress for me; something that I need to lay down daily at this wonderful throne of grace and mercy. Like Hebrews 4 says Christ knows how I feel and he knows what stress and anxiety feel like and desires so much for me to turn to him and say here you go you can have all this :). He died to be the one that holds me up and takes my hand and walks me through my experiences and makes me perfect. I have to remember that, it's all Him and not me. Normally I try to keep up the front that I have it all together and that the stress does't reach me but that's not what God wants or the people around me. I'm only me and I can only do so much and people and God appreciate it when we can say hey I need a little hand here. So by no means is my life difficult compared to some of the amazing and brave people that I know but I still need Christ everyday and right now in the midst of feeling like my head is spinning sometimes, there are no words to say how grateful I am that I have a savior who's willing to hold me and struggle, learn, and grow right along side me :).