Missing normal

Today is one of those days where I'm missing things that are "normal" to me. This morning I woke up and just felt kind of blah and couldn't quite figure out if it was homesickness or something else. As I was riding the pick up into the city to meet some friends, I realized that it wasn't necessarily home I was missing but being in normal surroundings. I miss being with people who have known me for years. I miss being able to walk around town and not have people stare because I look different. I miss being able to understand the conversations around me and the security that brings with it. I miss the schedule of the trolley when I need to get somewhere. I miss being able to pull out my iPhone and not worry about people seeing it. I miss being able to run my toothbrush under the water instead of avoiding the faucet like the plague because it could make me sick. I miss sitting on the couch with my family having couch time and watching Ellen.

A part of me didn't wanted to post about this because I wanted to remain strong and not make it seem like I wasn't appreciating the experience that God has so richly blessed me with. But another part of me knew that I had to be honest with myself and be real with the fact that even the world traveler/new experiences part of me yearns for that feeling of normal and the comfort that normal brings.

As I sit here I pray that God can ease that anxiety that so commonly tries to creep in when I feel like this and that He can grant me peace to enjoy the remaining two weeks I have here in Guatemala. I absolutely love my host family and the wonderful friends that I have made and I don't want to miss a moment of that by wishing I was somewhere other than where I am now.

Contentment is something I have always struggled with and is something that my pride hates to admit. I can't remember what the verse is but there is a part in the good old word of god where it talks about worrying and how that can't bring another moment to your life and how it really doesn't do anybody very much good. Worrying where I'm gonna be in two weeks and not being content with where I am right now is not going to make time any faster or help me to see the blessing that God has blessed me with anymore clearly. Thank you as always for reading and for encouraging me on this journey :).